Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Well, today is the day I give up on being loyal to anyone other than my husband and immediate family. I say that somewhat in jest, but part of me is completely serious. I cannot believe how many times I have given my heart and soul, put my blood, sweet, and tears into something, just for it to turn around and bite me in the butt.
Yesterday I found out that I do not have a job for next school year. Not only did I find this out after pushing the principal for the information, but I found out 20 minutes before I started teaching for six straight hours. No break to compose myself, no chance to lose control and let it all sink it. I think it finally hit me this morning.
When I got hired as a part time teacher at the beginning of this school year it was knowing that the job "should" turn into full time for next year. I also knew it depended on the numbers for enrollment and where the school went as far as expansion. Throughout the school year, however, I have been encouraged over and over again. I went to a conference in September, that I didn't get paid for, because I showed "potential" for continued employment. I was continuously praised for a job well done. Then, in January, we got a new principal.
Even with the new administration I was encouraged and felt secure. The bomb was dropped yesterday because I finally asked straight out about contracts, which had been promised by the end of April. That's when the principal told me that the enrollment numbers just weren't what they had hoped for and a full-time job was extremely unlikely. In his own words I need to "start putting in applications" at other schools.
They MAY be able to offer me the position I had hoped for, but they won't know until June or July. Ummmm.... schools are hiring NOW. If I wait until June or July I will be out of luck. A lot of good that's going to do. IF I am not employed by the time they are ready to make a decision, the principal will be calling me to offer a job, but more than likely it will be part-time at LESS than the number of hours I am working now!
I understand that even schools, especially charter schools, are businesses. My principal knew, though, that I NEED full time work next school year. He could have given me a heads-up for next year so I could have gotten a jump start on putting in applications. I was stupid, though. In March and early April there were TONS of jobs posted on educational boards. Now, not so much. But, I was stupidly loyal, stupidly thinking that I was secure, stupidly believing I was doing the right thing by trying to stay in one place and build a career.
Well, I've learned my lesson. I won't be giving my all to anyone who doesn't give me the same consideration. I'm tired of bending over backward trying to prove myself. I AM worth so much more!